love.

going aussstin for my brothers birthday! i get to see the little one<3 this is a good timing for me to go so i can keep my mind of things.

i wish i didn’t fucking care about you, i want nothing to do with you ever again. how can somebody be so fucking rude to you when all you were trying to do is help?

ugh, it has come time. where we are offically over. and i’m pretty much miserable. i loved him so much and i don’t want to see him go, i know its for the best, but why does it have to be this hard? it was only a high school relationship. it shouldn’t mean this much to me. but he meant the fucking world to me. i’m gonna have to see him move on, while i’m still miserable. i wish i didn’t break up with him, even though he fucked up. i wish i stayed with him and just dealt with the pain, because being without him is an even greater pain then before. this whole situation sucks. and i love him. and can’t tell him that. and i’m glad he doesn’t have my tumblr anymore to read this. cause fuck.i just don’t know what to do anymore.

he doesn’t always show it, and i don’t always think it.

but overall.

he is the worlds greatest boyfriend.